My Year in Review
Wow. It has been quite a while since I’ve written on my blog – over a year! I took a much-needed creative break. It’s been quite a year for me.
And how, you might be asking, am I going to relate my personal year-in-review to entrepreneurship? We’ve heard it before – you have to work on yourself first. If you are not in good shape – both mentally and physically – then your life won’t be in good shape.
Without going into a tremendous amount of detail as to how, where, or why, I will say that I had the best of intentions to have a great year in 2010. Resolutions were set, plans were made, and happiness and joy abounded.
Then, about halfway through the year, I hit bottom.
It didn’t come upon me suddenly – that is, I did have my bouts of bad days and depressions through out the year. I had gotten separated from my wife late in 2009, and thought I had gotten over the worst of it.
Seems people in process of getting a divorce, while going through the five stages of grief, do slip back and forth in the process.
I took a far slide back.
I was coming to the realization that everything changes when getting a divorce and being single. Friends change, attitudes change, lifestyles change. It is coming to grip with an entirely new way of life.
But, as we know, sometimes it takes hitting bottom to make changes for the better.
Working under the guidance of a dear friend I worked with, I set the stage to turn my life around. For some reason, I started on the Atkins diet. We were all talking about it, and I was gripping around for anything to change. So a diet it was.
I then quit smoking. THAT was really difficult, but a change that needed to take place. I won’t lie to you – it was not pleasant. The main reason I didn’t start up again is that I don’t want to have to go through the pain of quitting again!
Whatever works, right?
To help me quit smoking, I read a tremendous amount of information about the process of quitting. I read scientific studies, individual experiences, and internet forums. I read about everything involving the emotional part of it, as well as the physical and mental addiction and withdrawal process. I ran across a post about depression and codependency.
I read about codependancy, how it effects a person and those around him or her. I bought the book “Codependant No More”. That book was written about me, it seemed. It explained everything that I thought, that I felt, and that I lived from day to day. It opened my eyes to what the problem was, and where it came from, and how it controlled my life.
Yes, it was another thing for me to pile on the heap to work on, but – this realization was, by far, the best change that I set upon making with my life.
Next up – getting in shape. Along with my diet (that was going well, by the way), I joined a fitness gym with another friend from work. Even though he quit going a week after, I continued (and still continue to) go every day.
I have not been in the frame of mind to think about buisness, or working for myself, in quite a while. But I have hope, and I continue to fight the good fight every day, realizing that I have to improve myself before I can improve what is around me.